When I first signed up for this class, I really didn’t know what to expect. It fit my schedule, but I was skeptical. As researchers and writers we are used to doing most of our work alone, in front of a computer screen. We are used to studying things that other people have already figured out, or adding to scholarship in already existing fields, not breaking entirely new ground.
From day one, that is what the BeardStair project has been about, breaking new ground. That first night in class was an awakening for me. I realized that instead of our usual individual roles, we were going to be engaged in a collaborative project that was going to require everyone to contribute toward the end goals.
It only took that first week before my skepticism turned to excitement. Having built my own website to show my artwork and poetry, I was very excited by the possibility of creating a website that would function as an online teaching tool.
I joined the literary research group, because tech has never been my strong suit, and I wanted to contribute in the fullest way possible. I chose to focus on Sebastian Van Storck, because even though it was the most involved book, I felt that I was best suited to give explanations of the artwork, as it lies in my area of expertise. But it was nearly impossible to find information on the publishing house and the physical construction of the book. This made it more difficult to put the book in its proper context.
This taught me patience, and to adapt the research to the needs of the group project. Once I realized that there was little to be discovered in the physicality of the book, I was able to shift my focus to the story and Walter Pater, the assemblage of the editor book as medium, and then to the BeardStair project as a whole. The connection between Pater’s original intention, the intention of the editor books, and the goals of the BeardStair project, were too striking not to be explored.
I learned to communicate with the other people in my group, to take criticism, and to adjust my research methods to the goals of the group. Most of all I think I learned to listen better, and craft solutions based on the feedback of group members. This class is unique in the curriculum in the SJSU graduate program, because it has focused on working toward a group goal, and has taught us how to accentuate our strengths, and mitigate our weaknesses by using the strengths of others in our group. More to come later.